Annie
Mom, tomorrow will be 1 year since you went on the next journey, I still haven't dealt with it but when I opened up you obituary right now....it really tore me up! The reality of you really being gone is to unbearable...but one yr ago today I remember being next to you in your bed, you tried to be so strong for us mom and I wanted to be selfish and beg you to stay. But I admired your strength to do what ever you could till your very last breath, to show your family, "it's gunna be ok"... you well earned your wings Mom! I needed you most when i watched my baby girl bury her baby, we needed you, now my pop pops is with you and my brother, Panchito, beto and grandpa...I try not to regret in this life but with a amazing loving supportive forgiving mother like you, I can't help the fact that I never made you proud before you went💔 I know your with us all and I can't help but admit how many times I've been afraid of life on life's terms and wanted to see or talk to nobody but you💔 we were so different in lifestyles but the sound of your voice or the grin on your face was always "home" to me, I can't help but miss you from the depth of my heart, and those words you left me with echo in my head daily, "your gunna be sorry because one day I won't be here any more, then what will you guys do?"I worry about dad so much that I can't face him, I know his pain to an extent, I COULDN'T imagine the amount of time with the person you love to end, from one day to the next😠I love you mom, your unconditional love is truly missed on earth, NOBODY can or ever will come close to your embrace ... May you soar high in the sky freely with no worries or needs, you will never be forgotten here on earth with all of us alive, rest peacefully
Tuesday July 17, 2018 at 6:32 pm